Kind of down today...been kind of down for a couple of days. I'll get over it. The point is, I had a learning experience that knocked me off MY personal pedestal. :)
Did not do so well on that return BlogTalkRadio show the other day. This is hard to write about because it exposes something vulnerable and not perfect about me, lol...yeah, back to the learning experience that knocked me on my ass.
I totally had brain freeze when I had the opportunity to talk with Dannion Brinkley. It was like one of those awkward scenes you see in movies where the character suddenly has cameras, lights and microphones in her face and cannot find her voice. Yeah, that was me.
Oh, the horror and the embarrassment :-/ . And, how annoying to not be able to think on my feet! I should have written stuff down, of course, you say. I'm agreeing, yet I wanted to feel fresh and go with the conversation that was happening on the air.
It just did not go well for me. But, it was more than 'not thinking well' or 'forgetting' what I wanted to say. Dannion is a dynamic person with a strong energy and that totally blew me away. It was difficult for me to stand separate from his energy and to keep from absorbing it. So, I kind of had a meltdown and quietly melted away.
I am growing as a sensitive--an empath--and energy from other people can knock me off my feet. It used to happen all the time. Now, not so much, but when it does I'm out of balance for a few days.
Isn't that weird? I know it's real because I'm aware of it happening, yet I still don't have the wherewithall to know how to step out of the way. I've read Judith Orloff's books about energy and intuition and they are very helpful.
The DIY process of learning energy dynamics, energy psychology, EFT and meridians/chakras is like bumping around in the dark. All I know is that the mind/body connection is something to pay attention to. We learn a lot more about ourselves when we pay attention to how we feel with all our senses and our emotions.
Just got to keep on keepin' on, I guess.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
I'm just sitting here with my cup of tea and felt like talkwriting. I'm not writing a blog (for now) to sell anything, to share earth shattering content or to build a ginormous list. Nah.
After 30 years I left my job at an airline where I felt like a cog in a wheel. Groundhog day. Again and again. Until I felt like I was going to puke. Literally.
I just had to leave. Fortunately, a buyout was offered, not really a very large amount of money considering the blood, sweat, and tears that I poured in over more years than I want to admit. I grew up working at ______ Airlines. Granted, it took me a longer time than most ;) since I'm a babystepper kind of person.
I also don't happen to age like most...there's always an upside somewhere in the mix. I took the buyout thinking that I would land on my feet and create something new--a job, perhaps? No. I'm having a hard time directing myself to work for another company, after all, I've already done that quite successfully. Remember, 30 years???
This durn economic tummy ache has been causing quite a stir. I've been doing my best to focus my attention to matters positive and flowing with abundance. This is definitely not the time for scarcity thinking!!! So, my thoughts have turned to focus on what I can create. What can I create?
I'm thinking this is a fertile time for those people who are right brain thinkers (a la Daniel Pink), those who make a beat to their own music, or vice versa. Life doesn't have to be boring and linear (one step after the other in the same direction). I may be a babystepper, but I take my steps where they lead me.
Intuition is the key to finding one's direction in life. And, the more you trust your own path, synchronicity begins to happen. Not really, it already happens, we just don't notice it when we force our own way onto the path.
I really don't have much else to say. I'm excited about life. I'm on the path. There are ups and downs. Interestingly, after the downs come the ups---and I don't mean that in a bipolar sort of way. Energy works like that. I'm working on keeping my energy in the ups. In the vortex, per Abraham (Esther and Jerry Hicks).
It's been around 6 months that I have been semi-retired. What a feeling! Now I am feeling the urge to move forward. This is the interesting part because there are no rules, no directions, no demands. How would I like to proceed? That is the question. :)
After 30 years I left my job at an airline where I felt like a cog in a wheel. Groundhog day. Again and again. Until I felt like I was going to puke. Literally.
I just had to leave. Fortunately, a buyout was offered, not really a very large amount of money considering the blood, sweat, and tears that I poured in over more years than I want to admit. I grew up working at ______ Airlines. Granted, it took me a longer time than most ;) since I'm a babystepper kind of person.
I also don't happen to age like most...there's always an upside somewhere in the mix. I took the buyout thinking that I would land on my feet and create something new--a job, perhaps? No. I'm having a hard time directing myself to work for another company, after all, I've already done that quite successfully. Remember, 30 years???
This durn economic tummy ache has been causing quite a stir. I've been doing my best to focus my attention to matters positive and flowing with abundance. This is definitely not the time for scarcity thinking!!! So, my thoughts have turned to focus on what I can create. What can I create?
I'm thinking this is a fertile time for those people who are right brain thinkers (a la Daniel Pink), those who make a beat to their own music, or vice versa. Life doesn't have to be boring and linear (one step after the other in the same direction). I may be a babystepper, but I take my steps where they lead me.
Intuition is the key to finding one's direction in life. And, the more you trust your own path, synchronicity begins to happen. Not really, it already happens, we just don't notice it when we force our own way onto the path.
I really don't have much else to say. I'm excited about life. I'm on the path. There are ups and downs. Interestingly, after the downs come the ups---and I don't mean that in a bipolar sort of way. Energy works like that. I'm working on keeping my energy in the ups. In the vortex, per Abraham (Esther and Jerry Hicks).
It's been around 6 months that I have been semi-retired. What a feeling! Now I am feeling the urge to move forward. This is the interesting part because there are no rules, no directions, no demands. How would I like to proceed? That is the question. :)
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