Change is Good

Well, at least that is what I keep telling myself. In less than 2 months I will be a free agent: no job, no timeclock, no work policies, no....money? Yep. I am looking for work that I can do while I put together my online travel business. More on that in a later post.

My goal is to have more than one stream of income and to be entirely free of a traditional work schedule. From one extreme to the other. I believe it is not only possible, but, that I will be living my dream well before the end of 2009.

Now, to reinvent my life, to uproot and completely reorganize my belief system. Wheee! Not really so difficult...

I belong to 2 MasterMind groups that have me thinking outside of the box---really looking at my life and my purpose from the perception that WE CO-CREATE everything! What we think--IS. Total responsibility for everything we are, do or have.

Interestingly enough, once I started to place my focus on what is important to me and what I desired to be, do or have in my life, things began to shift. A shift in consciousness? Yes.

I'm really loving it. And, I'm really enjoying the celebration with those who believe the same. Not so much with those who don't. Negativity is difficult to stomach, and pessimism, fearfulness. I have enough of my own that I'm unloading!

I just saw a quotation that I like: 'Some things have to be believed to be seen'. Ralph Hodgson

I believe I will achieve ;)

Angst Spelled Backwards Would Be Gnats

What a tough time it is! I forgot what it was like to be a teenager. Today, I feel all gangly, irritable, moody, like screaming on the top of the roof...The irritability is the worst. I tend to say things before thinking.

I do have a last day of work now, December 19, 2008. Almost 30 years doing the same thing and now I want to make big changes...the nerve of me.

Work is the same, small, dark hole I worked myself into way back when...I still remember what my mother told me when I started working there. "It's a dead end job, Terry. You went to college and now this? Leave while you still can, etc."

She was right, at least in part. But, I had the opportunity to travel the world and see a lot of places I never could have without it. Unless I made a fortune and enough money to do it all without the uniform, lol.

So I am doing things backwards. The fortune will come when the student is ready. I'm ready to learn some more, to place my ego into awkward spaces, to feel the pain of growth.

It's ok. I've done it before, only now I'm older and have more than 20/20 hindsight. I have improved periphery from a much wider lens.

Then there's the intuition that seems to get the better of me. The weirdness of 'knowing' from a Source other than myself.

Only now am I able to deal with this mysterious, wonderful and sometimes unnerving resource. Well, deal with it is probably not the right word. Accept it...become more open to it...be patient with myself while I test drive it here and then there...

I need to be free of this job that was my security for half my life. And, where to from here is uncharted. I'm ok with no map. I'm going in the direction and speed that feels right.

Tomorrow is another day, like Scarlet said. And, maybe tomorrow's the day I'll see light at the end of the tunnel.

Hmmmm...

For some reason, although I don't think I've done anything criminal or even slightly illegal, my poor little blog is suspect and up for review. I feel a bit like looking over my shoulder, at least once, anyway, but I'm sure everything will work out all right.

In the meantime, I'm in the middle of re-inventing my life only to find that it requires a lot of emotional and physical work. I am sitting at my desk overlooking the vast array of junk piled sporadically throughout my apartment. It's quite charming, I must say.

I probably look about the same. Today I lugged my old and non-working computer over to a recycling center and it seemed to me, at least at the time, that there should be similar places for people. Yet, the fun of recycling myself would be lost. Besides, it takes some creative artistry and who can depend on someone else's taste for that?

Therefore, I am proceeding with the recycling of myself--who knows what the results will be? I take full responsibility.

Well, hurry up and review my blog...it's the least you can do!

Hello World!

This is my first attempt to blog, well, actually my second attempt. I have another one tucked away somewhere, maybe I'll tell you about it someday. I haven't the slightest idea of where I am going with this, but I do know that this is what I want to do. I need to journal for one thing, and I want to write and eventually be published and I need the practice, so why not?

My goal is to use this medium to improve my writing skills and to throw around some ideas that I can use in the future--hopefully--in creating my business as a life coach. My intention is to develop more than one business, but, I don't want to put the cart before the horse. :)

Anyway, I wanted to put a first page in this blog to get this whole thing started. I have noticed my resistance in many facets of life, procrastination until I get it right? Well, I'm going to jump in and start from the beginning.

Listen to this. I am so wanting to move my life forward that I took a buyout from my current job before securing another. This is something I would have never done even up to a few years ago. Risky stuff (for me, that is).

I have confidence that I will find the right place to work, even if it is in my own home. I want to create an exciting, growth oriented, fun, rewarding, inspiring way to make a living!!!!! One better. I AM in the process of creating an exciting, growth oriented, fun, rewarding, inspiring way to make a living!!! YES ;-D

Time for some popcorn.

Hello World, in spite of all that is now--I know things are going to get better.