Listen to this! Playing for Change (at the Nokia Theater)

South Coast Botanic Garden in Palos Verdes

Sunday I went to the South Coast Botanic Garden. It's located in Palos Verdes, in Southern California, off of Crenshaw Blvd.

Even though we are at the tail end of summer, the gardens were lush and beautiful. There were flowers of every color and variety.

We walked a quick 40 minutes through the entire scope of the gardens using the tram route. We wanted to get a good walk in because we just had lunch and dessert, but didn't want to stay too long fearing that we'd get locked up in there overnight.

There's so much to see, I will definitely be returning to give it more time. There are benches in different areas so you can relax while you take in the beautiful foliage, plants and flowers. I could see myself with Starbucks in hand sitting in their gorgeous rose garden surrounded by colorful purple flowers.

We stopped in to the grounds on a lark, out of curiosity. It was actually after hours and there was a wedding reception in full swing, yet the grounds keeper let us in anyway. Sometimes spontaneous works out to be better than planned!

The Eighth 9/11 Since...

I will always remember the significance of 9/11 in my heart because there is a part of me that will always have some connection to the events that occurred on that fateful day. After all, I worked for American Airlines and I knew that some of my coworkers died that day in a most horrible way.

I am forever thankful to all the people who stepped in and braved their lives to assist through all the chaos. Because of that day I will no longer be the same person. I believe all my AA friends and coworkers feel the same way.

I was driving to work about 6:30 in the morning or so. I drove for awhile without the radio on and then tuned in to Rick Dees in the Morning like I usually did, cursing under my breath to be up so darn early in the morning!

I caught him in the middle of talking about something and he sounded really emotional. It took me awhile to process exactly what he was talking about. In fact, I first thought it was just some kind of joke, like War of the Worlds, or something. I kid you not.

When it finally penetrated what was happening in New York...that UA and AA planes were crashing into the Twin Towers, I started crying and freaking out. The enormity of the situation became very crystal clear to me. And I was on my way to LAX, not knowing if it would be safe there, or not.

Crying and praying I continued, feeling that I had to do something, whatever I could to connect with my friends and coworkers. When I arrived, everyone was as white as a sheet, with tears in their eyes. TV's were on showing inconceivable pictures of destruction and death.

We had no idea what would happen next. We saw the Pentagon attacked, the crash in Pennsylvania. The news showed the same clip, over and over, of the two 767's hitting the towers, people jumping off the buildings.

What was next? Was LAX at risk? Then the planes were grounded, we were told to secure the aircraft. All the while no one could be sure if the terrorist attacks were over.

I volunteered to help with other agents to close up the aircraft that were parked at the gates. All planes were to be searched, closed and separated from the jetway so no one would be able to board.

I walked downstairs to the ramp and walked alongside the aircraft in eerie silence. I could hear bugs buzzing by and birds chirping it was so quiet.

It was the most strangest feeling to be in a usually hectic and ear piercingly noisy place and hear nothing. No one was there except for maybe three other agents who were closing up the other planes.

It felt like the end of the world for those moments that I was locking everything up. I felt helpless and numb, absolutely nothing could compare in any way to this situation.

I think I spent the rest of the day cleaning up. I can't remember if passengers were allowed in to refund their tickets. I believe that for around three or four days or so everything remained shut down.

We were told to go home and wait until the airport reopened. It still feels unreal to me, all that happened after the initial shock of events. I will never forget that day nor that moment of blatant recognition that nothing would ever be the same again.

There were many changes that occurred in quick succession since that day which affect how everyone travels--not to mention how the travel industry functions--not to mention how airlines operate--and how airline personnel need to adjust practically daily. I miss the way things used to be.

 

Wow, is this ever amazing. Mike Dooley had this embedded on his Facebook page and I just had to share it.

I've Been Shot! I Can't Feel My Legs!!

Yeah, that's some of the sounds I've been hearing all day. You see, I live next to a warehouse turned satellite film studio, which used to be operated by The Daily Breeze newspaper in Torrance.

Now it is being used as a film location, at least I think it is, with daily activity and sounds uncommon to my ears. I've been given notification that a Disney show will be shooting there starting September 29th.

That should be fun, lol. They did it earlier this year before the summer break, even using my street as a location for the show. Who knew?

I remember seeing several shoots (what do you call them, anyway?) at LAX when I worked there. Before all the 9/11 hoopla, the paparazzi showed up quite frequently.

But, that's another story entirely.

Wow

I haven't written for over a month. The last day I wrote was the day Michael Jackson died. I wrote in the morning so I was oblivious to the news...in fact after I wrote the entry I saw on the news that Farah Fawcett had died. She fought hard to live and left us a legacy of courage and hope. Farah was a beautiful human being.

Then shortly after the news about Michael came forward. It was a weird day for me. I think when somebody relatively young dies unexpectedly you are startled into remembering how fragile life really is. As hard as it is, I am living my life authentically. If I don't speak up for myself now, nobody else will!!

The other morning (not too early, lol) I played some Michael Jackson songs full blast and it felt GOOD. :)

Our Planet...it's not His or Hers...it's OURS

Playing For Change | Peace Through Music

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Bummer and a Half

Kind of down today...been kind of down for a couple of days. I'll get over it. The point is, I had a learning experience that knocked me off MY personal pedestal. :)

Did not do so well on that return BlogTalkRadio show the other day. This is hard to write about because it exposes something vulnerable and not perfect about me, lol...yeah, back to the learning experience that knocked me on my ass.

I totally had brain freeze when I had the opportunity to talk with Dannion Brinkley. It was like one of those awkward scenes you see in movies where the character suddenly has cameras, lights and microphones in her face and cannot find her voice. Yeah, that was me.

Oh, the horror and the embarrassment :-/ . And, how annoying to not be able to think on my feet! I should have written stuff down, of course, you say. I'm agreeing, yet I wanted to feel fresh and go with the conversation that was happening on the air.

It just did not go well for me. But, it was more than 'not thinking well' or 'forgetting' what I wanted to say. Dannion is a dynamic person with a strong energy and that totally blew me away. It was difficult for me to stand separate from his energy and to keep from absorbing it. So, I kind of had a meltdown and quietly melted away.

I am growing as a sensitive--an empath--and energy from other people can knock me off my feet. It used to happen all the time. Now, not so much, but when it does I'm out of balance for a few days.

Isn't that weird? I know it's real because I'm aware of it happening, yet I still don't have the wherewithall to know how to step out of the way. I've read Judith Orloff's books about energy and intuition and they are very helpful.

The DIY process of learning energy dynamics, energy psychology, EFT and meridians/chakras is like bumping around in the dark. All I know is that the mind/body connection is something to pay attention to. We learn a lot more about ourselves when we pay attention to how we feel with all our senses and our emotions.

Just got to keep on keepin' on, I guess.

I'm just sitting here with my cup of tea and felt like talkwriting. I'm not writing a blog (for now) to sell anything, to share earth shattering content or to build a ginormous list. Nah.

After 30 years I left my job at an airline where I felt like a cog in a wheel. Groundhog day. Again and again. Until I felt like I was going to puke. Literally.

I just had to leave. Fortunately, a buyout was offered, not really a very large amount of money considering the blood, sweat, and tears that I poured in over more years than I want to admit. I grew up working at ______ Airlines. Granted, it took me a longer time than most ;) since I'm a babystepper kind of person.

I also don't happen to age like most...there's always an upside somewhere in the mix. I took the buyout thinking that I would land on my feet and create something new--a job, perhaps? No. I'm having a hard time directing myself to work for another company, after all, I've already done that quite successfully. Remember, 30 years???

This durn economic tummy ache has been causing quite a stir. I've been doing my best to focus my attention to matters positive and flowing with abundance. This is definitely not the time for scarcity thinking!!! So, my thoughts have turned to focus on what I can create. What can I create?

I'm thinking this is a fertile time for those people who are right brain thinkers (a la Daniel Pink), those who make a beat to their own music, or vice versa. Life doesn't have to be boring and linear (one step after the other in the same direction). I may be a babystepper, but I take my steps where they lead me.

Intuition is the key to finding one's direction in life. And, the more you trust your own path, synchronicity begins to happen. Not really, it already happens, we just don't notice it when we force our own way onto the path.

I really don't have much else to say. I'm excited about life. I'm on the path. There are ups and downs. Interestingly, after the downs come the ups---and I don't mean that in a bipolar sort of way. Energy works like that. I'm working on keeping my energy in the ups. In the vortex, per Abraham (Esther and Jerry Hicks).

It's been around 6 months that I have been semi-retired. What a feeling! Now I am feeling the urge to move forward. This is the interesting part because there are no rules, no directions, no demands. How would I like to proceed? That is the question. :)

Earthquake

We just had an aftershock a few minutes ago, a 4.1, per the seismologist on the news. I'm not too happy about the ground shaking under my feet. In fact, it wasn't the ground under my feet, since I live upstairs on the second floor.

The earthquake on Sunday night was definitely worse. I heard all my kitchenware tinking and clanking, things falling, stomach churning.

I know, I live in the big CA so I should be used to earthquakes. Well, I'm NOT! :) Thankfully, no one was seriously hurt (at least I don't think so).

Leroy lived under the bed for hours...until he was hungry.

Breaking Through

Ever have one of those days? When things go beyond your expectations and you get a glimpse of the life you are aspiring to live? (Going to live is much better)

Today started just like any day. My day starts when I want it to, since I'm not working for corporate America anymore. I think my eyes opened somewhere around 8:45am :0) Sigh!

I had a short to do list: to run some errands in and out of the house and to check up on my emails, tweets, blogs and to listen to a BlogTalkRadio show in the afternoon. Since yesterday went well, having accomplished all I wanted to, I figured today would go about the same.

I was reading something on the computer when the phone rang. I heard from the answering machine that it was a call sent through my listing as a life coach on an online advice service.

It ended up being my first call with my first client! Specifically, my first PAYING client, lol. (I've already lived through years of unpaid internship) I have finally crossed through the door. Here's one income stream that I've been working on for quite some time and I can actually make use of my degree.

I made a little dent in my entrepreneurial progress! After the call I took a little time to consider my next move in a different business I am in the middle of developing. I'm still just not ready to talk about it.

I will tell you though, it has been quite a quantum jump for me to change my life completely from the inside out. I've been percolating for many, many moons on what I can do that would be FUN, that would HELP others, bring together COMMUNITY--basically help people to connect while promoting what they do.

That's enough for now. The big thing that happened today, happened after my coaching call.

I was listening to Georgiann Kiricoples' radio show, Breaking Through, on BlogTalkRadio. She had as her guest, Dannion Brinkley, the author of Saved by the Light and Secrets of the Light.

It occurred to me to call in so that I could ask questions about my mother, who passed away almost 15 years ago. I called in expecting to be placed in a queue and to 'maybe' be selected to speak with Dannion on the air.

Thing is, I was selected almost immediately, as I was stuffing my mouth full of taco chips. Timing was never my forte, to be sure. Surprised and bewildered, I was on the air--crunch, crunch!

Not what I was expecting, exactly. I've been wanting to explore what it would be like to get 'out there' and talk to an audience since I'm more of a dip-your-toe-in-the-water-and-see-how-it-feels type person. It was definitely a catalystic (word doesn't really exist) experience!

Georgiann is an amazing and poised radio host. She's never without words, always cordial and interesting to listen to. (Check out her radio show on www.georgiann.com.)

As we both talked about our experiences with loss and death it became clear that Dannion was not going to make it due to other obligations. I figured that it would be a good time to say goodbye and hang up, but, somehow Georgiann kept me conversation.

Very good experience for me...to see how a professional works a show when things don't go exactly as expected. While I was feeling tongue tied and entirely comfortable, Georgiann kept the momentum going discussing Dannion's work with death and dying and his website www.TheTwilightBrigade.com.

It really felt like a phone call...because that's what it is, but, I knew that it was being aired to those listening in on the internet radio show. Once I got that thought out of my mind, it wasn't so bad. The important thing I noted was the necessity for a backup plan and extra content to talk about.

At the end of the show Georgiann was so kind to offer me Dannion's latest autographed book, Secrets of the Light. How cool was that? I liked that I accomplished something without actually planning it out. The opportunity materialized as though it was meant to be. So, I guess I sort of did my own kind of breaking through.

Cat Bite, Birthday and *Disneyland*

It's now 16 days after the infamous cat bite and my thumb is practically healed through. I have a very short nail since I cut it down, but there's not much nail damage remaining.

I was on a generic of Augmentin for 7 days after the IV meds. Now there's just a bit of tenderness, especially when using pressure--mainly from trying to pop a pill out of the plastic and foil type packaging. Yay! It's over :)

I went to the happiest place on earth on my birthday!!! Disneyland was FUN! It always is, especially when you haven't been there for awhile. However, it was CROWDED and it was on a MONDAY in May, before school is technically over.

1 hour waits in lines, even the line to get IN the park. Yeah, it was still fun, but I'm not much into lines and long term gratification at amusement parks. But, I did get in F.Re.E since it was my birthday...check it out online. You need to sign up in advance and print out the certificate to show them at the entrance.

And, believe me, it helps to cut the cost if you are going with others. Adult entrance is $69.00 and children up to 10 are $59.00 each. Since I went with a friend we divvied the one ticket so we both paid around $35.00...not bad...and California residents get a two-fer, which means you can go back within 30days to see California Adventure, a newer attraction that Disney added to their park. I guess it's not that new anymore, but it is for me. I'm looking forward to it!

So, I'll be b-a-a-ck for a second round in a couple of weeks. One more thing...the economy can't really be that bad since Disneyland was full of people, mostly families in fact...and it isn't even summer yet. Perhaps it was everyone's birthday? ;-D

Partnerships Past

The impending partnership between Chrysler and Fiat brought me back to the 80's when AMC merged with Renault, creating the Renault Alliance car. It seemed like a good thing at the time. It was 1983. I was in my 20's.

All I know is that I wanted that car! I really wanted the convertible, but, had to settle for the sedan version. My car looked just like the one on the left...even the cinnamon color.

I thought it was beyond cool. I wouldn't be caught dead in it today. However, my taste in cars, as well as in men had a lot of growing up to do. Looking back, I made two flawed choices: the boyfriend and the car.

Both are history. I bought the car because of the boyfriend. I no longer have either. Let me tell you about the car.

The first thing I should have taken seriously was the steering wheel. It was always crooked so if I were to straighten it out while driving I'd end up in the next lane. No big deal, I thought.

I remember that it died on me on the way home from work one night, about 2 in the morning. I was driving on La Cienega through Ladera Heights, you know, where it's dark and desolate and kind of creepy. No cell phones, at least I didn't have one at the time. That's when you had to wait for someone to stop and hopefully call a tow-truck for you.

Yeah, the details are vague, but I do remember a few stoppers by and eventually getting the help I needed. There were other events, but I really don't remember much else save for the last day I drove my car to work.

That was the day it caught on fire for no apparent reason. I was on my way to work, driving on the 405 North towards the La Cienega off ramp when I saw tendrils of smoke rising from the hood of my car. I thought I even saw a lick of flame coming through the seam where the hood meets the fender.

My first thought was that I was imagining things, but then I really saw fire. I pulled over fast and jumped out of my car...grabbing purse, airline i.d....(crazy me) and ran like hell. Poof. My car became a little inferno on the side of the freeway.

You know how it is, driving by the poor soul who is pulling their hair watching their car torch into a beautiful blazing bonfire. That was me.

All I know is that there are some very good Samaritans on our highways. I received all kinds of help, again, without a cell phone or any other technological gadget save for the roadside phone box. Humanity can be a beautiful experience, just watch out what car you buy.

I hated that car. The Renault Alliance was supposed to be a merger of European design and American ingenuity. Poor design made it self destruct.

About 6 months after my car spontaneously combusted I received a recall letter stating there was a risk of fire due to faulty electrical issues. Yeah, well, good riddance.

Yes It's Been Awhile...

I've been blog-stalled. First I didn't feel like writing and that went on for a couple of weeks. I then became distracted by all things other than writing and finally, everything came to a screeching halt when my cat chomped on my thumb. I bet most people have no idea of the consequences of what appears to be a mere cat bite.

I had absolutely no clue what was about to happen last Monday night. I was getting ready to end my day with a cup of tea and a few minutes of Castle when my cat, Leroy somehow convinced me to let him romp around outside for a bit. Even though a small voice inside told me "nooooo", I opened the screen door to the big wide world and Leroy took off. Poof--gone.

Usually he just lurks around my door and the upper landing where we live. That night, however, he felt the urge to charge downstairs straight to the bushes in the front yard. I ran after him intending to grab him up in one fell swoop.

However, my thumb and his mouth found each other in one perfect split second. I could hear the thumbnail splinter and break as I instinctively retracted my arm in shock. "You bit me!", was all I could say, looking at the blood dripping, noticing puncture wounds on both the nail and underneath. Ouch.

At that moment one of my neighbors walked past Leroy, who was sputtering and hissing, having poofed himself up like a gigundous furry porcupine. That was all it took to "scare" him upstairs to the door and back to his normal "mew, mew...let me in!!!" docile self.

I was tired so I cleaned up the wound and went to bed. Next day it looked pretty bad and I probably should have done something about it, but I waited until evening to decide. It was infected and nasty so I made an appointment to see my doctor next morning.

Do you realize that a cat bite requires intravenous antibiotics? I did not. Five consecutive days of IV treatment. Yep, I had lots of fun this week going back and forth to the doctor's office for my 30 minute drip.

So, unless you already know this, be most careful around open mouths, particularly cats' mouths. I did learn, however, that human bites are worse, second are cat bites and dog bites come in third. Just so you know.

One last thing. In all 15 years this is the first (and hopefully last) time that Leroy bit me. When indoors he is the epitome of gentleness and "usually" well behaved. He doesn't know this yet, but, Leroy won't be doing any romping around outdoors anymore.

PS: I want to stress that a cat bite is very serious. Cats have some nasty bacteria in their mouths (well, consider where they clean themselves) and the bacteria is very deadly to humans if untreated. I probably could have avoided the heavy IV stuff had I sought medical treatment immediately, or at least the next day. I was informed that there is about a 48 hour window to get medical help without further complications. Even now after 5 days my thumb is still sore and partially infected. I'll probably need a second round of antibiotics when I see my doctor tomorrow. Act fast, especially with children. The nurses at the infusion center said that they treat cat bites "a lot".

Too Much Info Can Be Dangerous to One's Sanity

I'm suffering from information overload, have been for over a week now. I'm torn between the desire and need to know more and more and the energy it takes to integrate it into my personal "hard drive".

I say that in jest, but, is that not what we all do? Well, at least some of us. What do people do when learning something new and entirely different from their "normal"? Learning takes a huge amount of energy and, in my opinion, the main focus of learning rests with discernment.

We cannot learn everything. It is simply impossible to absorb all existing information, therefore the importance lies in knowing what information we need. Everything else becomes superfluous, hindering progress.

That is what is making clear sense to me now. I need to go from--I want it all!--to--What will best serve me in what I want to create in my life?

Sounds so elementary, yet I do believe our society creates a sort of race or competition to obtain the ultimate, best, most noteworthy, hot off the press sizzling knowledge. Knowledge is power if you know the right stuff, that is.

I am developing my idea for a business while listening to and reading many experts' opinions on how to succeed in business. That's a good thing to do if you want to be motivated or inspired to do the same. Or is it?

For me, I've come to realize that listening to many experts is not such good thing after all. It's more about what to do with what you know that matters and I'm finding that much of what I've been taking in is not what I need to know!

Back to the drawing board for me. I did not say back to square one, it's not about starting over but more about being mindful of where I am and how I will proceed.

I'm curious of how others process information in order to expand their mind library. As for me, it's more about taking a break for awhile. I can see that, as for now, I won't be a prolific blogger until I work out some inner kinks.

My biggest learning curve to date is managing time while developing, creating, allowing my ideas to bloom. Action will come, but I don't so much want to run about wildly without knowing where I'm going. No, I am not stuck, I am re-booting!

:)

Twinkle Twinkle Twitter Stars

Yesterday I listened in to SuccessFoolTV on UStream to hear Alejandro Reyes (@successfool)give his views about social networking, specifically on Twitter. I love listening to this man! It's because he's real, he's honest, he listens to other people's ideas, he basically tells it like it is and those qualities make him likable.

I have been listening in for awhile to get a feel of what truly is going on in the Twitterverse. I like the energy that Alejandro brings to people. It's contagious! Because of him I understand the essence of what twitter is all about: making connections and keeping it real (almost his exact words).

Another presence who I am compelled to follow is Gary Vaynerchuk (@garyvee) for much the same thing. This guy is wild with passion about what he does! I love that! He inspires me to be creative. This kind of rapport is what sustains community and acts as a catalyst for more positive connections.

Speaking on a wider scale, have you seen the movie trailer for The Shift? Go to http://www.theshiftmovie.com/ and you can watch the trailer there. I'm not always sure of what's hype and what's real, but it appears real to me and the movie is sending out the message that more and more people are connecting to do GOOD.

Is it true that we are shifting to a new world perspective? Is the movie trying to build enough hype to move it forward? This kind of movement is exciting, if it's real.

I didn't mean to put those two subjects together...Twitter and a world movement...but do they kind of go together even just a tiny little bit? They both combine marketing with connection and the aspiration to help others.

Where does it go from here? I'm hoping a lot of good things will come from it. It feels like it's just the beginning.

Twittereality

I joined up with Twitter last September just to see what it was all about. Suffice to say I've seen much activity, most of which is marketing and the selling of something or other, mainly how to succeed with social media, how to make a million in 3 weeks, how to get an immense following and become inundated with _______ (not sure what).

It's a culture all of it's own, that Twitterific virtual utopia filled with Tweets. I'm finally getting the hang of it and am now searching to create my own little posse of people to follow or be followed by. I'm not sure why anyone would want to follow me because I'm not selling anything, I have no wisdom to share aside from a few remarks here and there, all I'm doing is being myself.

But, I have an interest in PEOPLE, what makes us tick, how we create something out of nothing, how we tend to band together and create a 'tribe' (coining Seth's word du jour). Twitter all in of itself is a very cool thing and I've been telling everyone to get on board. It's a way to share and to become involved in evolving technology where everyone is invited; there is no popularity list to be picked from.

It is truly an American creation: Grassroots, innovative, forward thinking, an equal opportunity. It's also gotten me to think outside of my perception of what I thought possible.

I'm suddenly becoming flooded with new ideas, and, mind you I've never worked in a think tank capacity. I've always wanted to though, and there it is. I think that Twitter allows people to create a new space for themselves if they really want to.

It's something about people coming together and the energy that it creates that helps to make room for new ideas. It's exciting, it is. I'm revved.

That's it for now. Have to work on my studies. Can you believe that I am working on a Doctorate in clinical hypnosis? I can't. School isn't new to me, I have a BS in human services and a minor in public relations; a Masters in clinical psychology and now I am interested in the mind body connection. Interesting stuff. I just didn't think I'd still be hitting the books. I guess I'll always be hitting the books, lol.

I always have more to say but I really must stop now. Keep tweeting and I'll catch you all later.

(( ))

Feeling Exposed and Kind of Snarky

I'm leaving in a few minutes to do some paperwork stuff at my sister's. She's in Santa Monica, so that will give me about 30-40 minutes to listen to something inspirational on the way. Do you do that too? More than ever I need as much inspiration and support that I can weedle out of anyone along the way. I'm nice when I weedle, though.

I guess I'm not all that snarky today. It's just that I like that word, really. Oh, boy...I have so much going on in my head and I don't quite know what to do with it.

Mainly I'm feeling weird that I decided to publish this blog on twitter. People, I'm just doing this for practice--really--so I can get rid of that shaky feeling of doing something new. I can't tell you how nervous I've been living since I left my job habit.

I talked with a business planner/developer who gave me a cart load of ideas with which to put together my OWN BUSINESS!!!!! Not that I'm excited or anything. Yeah, it's ok.

I'm out of time. I'm changing the name of my blog...it was ok when nobody read it. Maybe nobody will read it still...oh, then I guess it really doesn't matter. Nothing really matters.

Later~

Dr. Jonny Bowden's Blog: Overeating Triggers Overeating

I subscribe to many interesting newsletters on various subjects and often they are worth sharing. Here's a post by Jonny Bowden, PhD, C.N.S., who is a nationally known expert on weight loss, nutrition and health and is the author of several best-selling books.

I like to know what makes things tick, why things happen like they do, what influence we have upon what happens naturally, etc. The following article explains how the brain affects our eating habits. This is something I want to know because I've been trying to lose the same 10 lbs for probably about...oh, a few years by now. I like what he has to say about the 80% rule...I used to know that from way back when. It's a good reminder for everyone.

Dr. Jonny Bowden's Blog: Overeating Triggers Overeating

Eeeek! I see myself on Google!

It was a tad bit unnerving to see my name plastered all over the place when I googled my name. It's just coming upon 6:30am--I can't sleep--and of course the first thing I turn to is my trusty ol' computer. All I had was my diary when I was an angst ridden teenager, no keyboard, no cellphone, none of the technological gadgetry that we (and I certainly include myself!) have all become so dependent on.

But, I digress, I was talking about google-shock. Really now--if you write a blog, if you tweet, chat, link-in, etc (can't think of any more since I'm dragging from lack of sleep), trust me--you are all over the internet.

I don't really care, in fact, I need to get used to seeing myself objectively if, in fact, I want to write blogs, comments, blurbs, articles, or even interviews and be noticed. It just feels weird to see it for the first time...like a virgin...hey!....for the very first time...like a virrrrrrgin...ok my voice is bad, I'll stop.

I'm going back to bed and this will all have been a very bad dream with Madonna in it.

The Right to Write

That is the title of the book I'm reading by Julia Cameron. I've become all scholarly again and over the past few weeks have managed to enroll in a writing class, resume my doctorate work in clinical hypnosis, open a Twitter account, and continue to work on ways to create income! Income, come in! Right over here, please. I'm very cordial with Mr. Money because I'd like him to visit often. I don't have a lot to say today and I have a writing assignment to finish, but I realize I haven't been very attentive to my blog. I will try to come back more often; perhaps I can be a positive role model for Mr. Money. I hope he reads this blog, lol. :)

Ch-Ch-Ch-Change!!!

1/21/09
Change is good (my new and continuing mantra). I am looking forward to many changes in my life and in the world around me. Without change life would be boring and repetitive with very little to look forward to. Not that it's easy, mind you...

My last posting took me almost a month to publish. It was just sitting there in my list of posts, waiting patiently for me to climb out of my pool of denial. I go swimming there once in awhile, lol.

It has taken me awhile to accept and embrace the idea of moving forward. Leaving my airline job was the hardest thing I've done in a long time, maybe one of the most important actions I've taken in my whole life.

To be kind to myself, I took some time off to float awhile--and--a month sabbatical has done wonders for my psyche. The thought of living on a fixed income for the meantime is not so scary anymore. And, I am reconnecting to my creativity! I thought I had lost it somewhere in the terminal at LAX.

Because I am involved in a Law of Attraction mastermind group, I have been working steadily on creating abundance, peace and gleefulness in my life. It's so much fun! Life is really very enjoyable once you get the hang of it.

This is all I feel like posting for now. I'm hungry and I want to play :) I will return tomorrow with real content for this blog--even though I am not doing this for anyone else than myself. I do have a lot to say, though.